Whelp another year down….another year I survived. I really started to think I wouldn’t make it this year. I had been going through some legal troubles (well not really, because I knew the case against me would get thrown out and it did because it was based on lies). So i started stressing out wondering..what if the judge rules in her favor…what then??
So stress led to me cutting people off for the sake of the case. In doing that, i got depressed again. Then my birthday on top of it all, made me feel even more depressed.
Well cutting folks off probably wasn’t a good idea, but for the sake of my case, I had to keep everyone at an arms length, if not more. I couldn’t let it on with what I was about to do. Just like when I took the car…no one had any clue to what I was doing.
I just think that there are too many folks who live by the rose-colored glasses. No one wants to see the manipulation that is going on. Yeah, everyone wants to see the good in people, but no one wants to face the facts. I guess my job as an OPSEC has taught me that facts are truth, and to take verbal testimony with a grain of salt. While you may not mean to say something, in passing it just slips out. Partners mean well, but what’s said within the confines of a home domicile are not going to stay there. they may still leak out. Not accusing anyone of doing this, just saying this in general. I know there are some things I tell my girl. But a lot of it is about work. Just like she tells me about her job. She’s not supposed to, but she leaves out the major identifying details and dumbs it down. So all that personally identifiable identification (or PII) is out, so it could be anyone. Just like when i talk about work…or people I know…it could be relate to anyone.
Look at this blog…nothing really says anything about anyone. Unless you know me and know the story, you have no idea who these people are. I use pseudonyms, i practice OPSEC (operational security), I never really say who, what, where, why, how. But who does that in their personal life?? Perhaps this should be another post. **shrug**