I was supposed to head to sc to see a friend graduate. But just my dumb luck I get sick. I spend all week getting my hair done just for this occasion. But I’m down now.
Saw my therapist this morning. She said I should live for today and not worry about the future. Maybe she’s right, but my obsessive mind can’t. I have to keep on thinking two steps ahead of what I will do.
She also noticed my anxiety twitch. I tried to hide it but I’m not that good. Hell I twitch when I’m home and when I’m at work. Public speaking yeah all types of anxiety.
On the other hand I also saw my nutritionist for the third and last time. She tried to berate me for eating a short sub. I informed her that I was in a rush and I didn’t bring my normal lunch to work b/c I wasn’t feeling well. Then she tried to say I’m eating too many fruits and drinking too much orange juice, but I’m like uh huh hello I’m sick. Of course I’m gonna drink juices I gotta get this virus out my system. Hell I’ve been eating good and she overlooks the last three weeks of good clean eating for one 6 inch sub.
So now if she expects to see me back she can kick rocks cause I’m not gonna do it. I’ll find another one and I’ll just have to pay. B/c I refuse to be treated that way.
Bad enough to kick me when I’m down but to increase the force to make sure I don’t get up huh.