This is only part 1 of ??? To my constant update.
I saw my psych doctor last week. She encouraged me to get rid of my stress. Said it would be taxing on my lifeline if I continued to keep it. So I did.
It was an internal struggle to do so, but I did what I had to do. I got tired of the arguments, the battle for control, the fights about finances while her belief was that money grew in trees.
She’ll probably read this then send it to all her friends. Who are all some great people but the fact is they weren’t in our relationship. They only knew her side of the story, when the fact is…there is her side, my side and the truth. I have nothing to lose by telling the truth. She on the other hand has everything to lose.
Her people say they are to take care if her…well I’m just feeling like good. I think for me…I started to fall out of love with her right after the engagement. We had these grand plans…she would re-up and I’d finish school. She’d get stationed somewhere new and I’d be a military spouse. But somewhere between saying yes and the service she forgot about those promises. The fairytale ended. She became so relaxed that she just stopped trying. She’ll say she tried but she stopped being the woman I fell in love with. Her hopes and dreams dashed at the mention of a medical discharge. No fight in her at all. To me it seemed like she said screw it…my future wife is going to be an accountant making all this money so I won’t bother trying. I’ll be a stay at home wife. Well umm no. Truthfully…she kinda sucked at that job. I know not a single person who uses the dishwasher to dry dishes after cleaning them. No one. That’s what racks are for. And towels. But she did. I’d have to mention cleaning and then well she’d get up and get started. When she did clean it was great, but eventually she stopped. She was supposed to clean the dog poop up in the backyard…that didn’t last long. So I was constantly back there doing it on my own.
Along with a bunch if other stuff…..